You never know how life is going to turn out. Tonight I was sitting in an empty laundromat as the winds picked up and the storms started to approach from the west. As I sat there hoping I would be out of there soon, I couldn't help but think how this would be the perfect opening for a scary movie. A girl, alone in a suburban laundromat, ominous weather, some cheesy 80's ballad (I think it was by Nelson) in the background...just make me hot and blonde and we have the makings of a slasher film folks.
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This sudden burst reminded me of the days where I really thought I could make a living off that creativity. I thought Indiana was just a brief pit stop. I had big plans and dreams. Instead I never left, and I work in education. It isn't a bad life...actually it is a good life. Still I do sometimes wonder what would things be like if my life had gone to plan. Where would I be? What would I be doing? Would I be alone?
I know some of how things ended up were for the best. This past year would have been even worse if I was farther away. I have people here that I love and would do anything for. I am perfectly content most days with out those things I thought would define my life. Every once in while (typically when I am feeling really lost or hurt) I do wonder: What if? I don't dwell on it long. When I think of all the amazing people I have in my life here, the resentment fades away. I do wish I could catch a break (seriously), and maybe I will. For now I just keep moving forward on my own, loving the people in my life as much as I can, and doing my job to the best of my ability.
This may not be the life I wanted, but even with all the trials I face, I can't imagine it working any other way. You never know how life is going to turn out.