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Weight Loss, Self Image, and Jealousy

I didn't like how I looked. However, I wasn't doing enough to change it. Yeah, I dieted for my brother's wedding, but I never committed to making a true lifestyle change.

When Mark and I moved in together, I decided to make that happen. It wasn't just for me, it was also for him and for the girls. I wanted us to eat healthy. I wanted to commit to being more active.

I have been successful on both  counts. I have lost and kept off weight. I have gone down 2 pant sizes at my favorite store. While I have a long way to go to reach my goal, I see the progress.

That alone keeps me happy most of the time, but then there are the moments where it is just not enough.

It is the moments where I see my self in unflattering light at the hair salon next to my skinny  stylist.

It is the moments where the new pants are still a little snug.

It is in the moments where I do not like how any of my shirts fit.

It is in the moments where I can't find a swim suit that is flattering.

Those …