music for thought Current mood: cranky
I should have gone out tonight. I should have gone to Lulu's. I should have spent time with my friends. Instead, I just couldn't get over this blah feeling. It isn't like I sat at home and cried on my couch all night...so not the case. I just had zero modivation to do ANYTHING. Maybe it was this crappy week paired with my sinus/allergy crap. Maybe it is my lack of sleep. I don't know what it is, but I want it to go away. Some of it is that I know there is something I have to do, but I am terrified of it, AND I have no idea of where to even start. I know it has to be done though, or else I am headed for a world of hurt. I'm not even certain I can do what I need to do at the moment.

Once again my music reflects my mood. Here are my most highly played songs of the week. The intial plan was to only post the top 25...but we had a huge amount of ties...
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Going under
Evanescence
Anywhere but home
Alt.End
The Cure
The Cure
Inside Out
Eve 6
Eve 6
Only In My Dreams
Debbie Gibson
Greatest Hits
Life Got In The Way
Sister Hazel
Chasing Daylight
Hey Jealousy
Gin Blossoms
20th Century Masters - The Millennium Collection: Gin Blossoms
I Don't Want to Live Today
Ape Hangers
Empire Records
Two Points for Honesty
Guster
Live in Sayreville, NJ - 12/13/03
Cement
Feeder
Polythene
You Held the World in Your Arms
Idlewild
The Remote Part
Not Just Sometimes But Always
Idlewild
Warnings/Promises
Satellite
Guster
Ganging Up On The Sun
Happier
Guster
Lost and Gone Forever
Parachute
Guster
Parachute
Black Balloon
The Goo Goo Dolls
Live In Buffalo - July 4th, 2004
Effortlessly
Sister Hazel
Chasing Daylight
01:00 A.M. Jenni's Song
Matthew Good
Beautiful Midnight
My Perfect Day
Feeder
Polythene
It's My Life
Bon Jovi
Crush
One Love
Sister Hazel
Live LIVE (Disc 2 of 2)
...catch.
Seth Horan
Conduit
Welcome to My Life
Simple Plan
iTunes New Music Sampler (Atlantic/Lava Edition)
In Between Days
The Cure
The Head On The Door
Let Go
Frou Frou
Garden State
Fa Fa
Guster
Lost and Gone Forever
Plowed
Sponge
Rotting Pinata
Underdog
Lisa Loeb
Hello Lisa
Shimmer
Fuel
Sunburn
If You Could Only See
Tonic
Lemon Parade
Never Ending Story Theme Song
A New Found Glory
From The Screen To Your Stereo
Stay
Lisa Loeb & Nine Stories
Reality Bites Original Soundtrack
Little Black Backpack
Stroke 9
Nasty Little Thoughts
Minority
Green Day
International Superhits!
Medicine
Guster
Goldfly
Let Me Sleep (Next to the Mirror)
Idlewild
100 Broken Windows
Your Mistake
Sister Hazel
Chasing Daylight
Either Way (Live Version)
Guster
Live in Lexington, KY - 3/2/04
As If I Hadn't Slept
Idlewild
Warnings/Promises
I Want Warning
Idlewild
Warnings/Promises..>

Lyrically I'm picking songs that reflect or resemble my mood and feelings even more than I have in the past. I'm not sure what is up with that. Regardless, I need to modivate myself to want to have fun....

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